First section is the original 'Bad Thing' written on 3rd December 2023 I need to learn that I can do the bad thing, and 'get away with it'. I can do the bad thing, and I won't be hated, or disliked, or punished for it. Or that if I am hated, or disliked, or punished for it, that's ok. That's survivable. It won't destroy me. I've always done the good things, because that means they will love me, they won't reject me. But it wasn't me they loved - not really. It was the other m