I feel as if I'm unravelling My thread of life, falling away from that thick, warm, safe, soft ball of wool. All I thought I knew and was certain of, all that I built my foundations upon, falling off my lap, onto the floor, rolling away from me. The life I thought I knew the life I had the life I was living is all there, contained within that bundle of wool. The routines, the early morning calls, the responsibilities and the self assurances of the man I thought I was Coming a

Transcription from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A02Ucd6monY One of the most surprising but powerful explanations for why we may, as adults, be in trouble mentally, is that we were in our earliest years, denied the opportunity to be fully ourselves, that is, we were not allowed to be willful and difficult. We could not be as demanding, aggressive, intolerant and unrestrictedly selfish as we needed to be. Because our caregivers were preoccupied or fragile, we had to be pre

At times I think this isn't working - the therapy, the time off work, the talking, the endless talking, the endless sleeping What if I'll never be better? What if my life will cascade downwards until the end? What if I die having lived a life full of regrets? What if I fail to achieve the incredible things I know I am capable of? Living an ordinary life is NOT ENOUGH They never listened to this - they said it was fine They said I was too sensitive They said I was a dreamer Th

Full of doubts, I ask myself how do I know any of this is working? The therapy, the pain and shame of being signed off sick at work, the yelling and screaming at my husband, the awkwardness, the pain -what's it all for? SO, I made myself a list of 'evidence' - things to look out for, and be aware of, that I begin to do, either intentionally or unintentionally, that 'prove' that it is. Update, additions to the list added on 22nd January 2024; I don't get so angry at perceived