Evidence

Full of doubts, I ask myself how do I know any of this is working?

The therapy, the pain and shame of being signed off sick at work, the yelling and screaming at my husband, the awkwardness, the pain -what's it all for?

SO, I made myself a list of 'evidence' - things to look out for, and be aware of, that I begin to do, either intentionally or unintentionally, that 'prove' that it is.

Update, additions to the list added on 22nd January 2024;

I don't get so angry at perceived slights - when something unjust occurs, I take note of my initial reaction to it - is it rage, is it anger? Or am I calmer now? Now that I am merging the true and false selves, and allowing that venting of the trapped rage that was building up within me.