Right now, I feel very sad, I feel very down I feel hopeless I've been trying to do the right things Writing in my little book I've been trying to get up I've been exercising I've not been out in the sun as much as I should be, I know that But when I do it's just depressing, and dirty, and ugly And I don't get any joy from going out there This joy that I'm waiting for is not immediate - I have to put in the work now in the hope, faith, belief that it will pay off at some unk

The process of dissecting / splitting / breaking down the false self is full of risks. In fact, it can be fatal. One outcome of beginning to break down the false self is - what is left behind? Who, actually, am I? I've lived within this false self for so, so long, so many years. I've worn this costume for so long, I can't remember, I don't know, who the real me is. Self-alienation - Being an alien (unknown) to oneself A consequence of dismantling my false self, of realising t

All excerpts taken from the audio version of The Drama of the Gifted Child, Alice Miller, which can be found on YouTube This excerpt begins at approximately 2:31:24; In an effecting and angry letter from Steten (Hermann) Hesse wrote to his parents; If I were a bigot and not a human being, I could perhaps hope for your understanding. All the same, his release from the home was on the condition of his 'improvement', so, the boy improved. In a later poem dedicated to his parents

All excerpts taken from the audio version of The Drama of the Gifted Child, Alice Miller, which can be found on YouTube This excerpt begins at approximately 39:54; I constantly feel that the demands are too great, but I cannot change that, I must always achieve MORE than others. ... Accommodation to parental needs often (but not always) leads to the as-if personality, to a FALSE self. This person develops in such a way that he reveals only what is expected of him, and fuses s